nenek....

"grandmother"

my late granny

i really missed her...so vy vy much

day b4 yesterday...dreamed abt her

bcos...

= i'm vy sad = i'm so confused = i'm damn lost

i did noticed, whenever i'm in that 'moods'...

she'll come into my dream

she is so cool...yet firm on decision

she always advise me what to do

for me >> she's always right

now...this moment..

i really need her 

to tell me what to do

to tell me which way to take

to tell me when to turn

she came into my sleep

but i don't understand any meaning

she didn't tell me in words

passed me >> key, sword, coins

she just looked n smiled

& she is gone

just like that..

i don't get it <<<

hopefully she'll be back

to tell me the whole things

what is all about

may Allah bless her soul

may Allah show me

aminnnn..

missed u granny :  rossi

nasib...yakin...

nasib = fate

org kata untung sabun timbul

untung batu tenggelam

yg timbul 2 untung ke atau yg tenggelam ?

may b kita kena tgk setiap keadaan & kejadian time 2 kot..

ada kala kita nak timbul...

mudah diperlihat

mudah terhanyut

mudah terselamat

...tapi >>

mahukan kita diperlihat waktu 2 ?

relakah kita terhanyut dibawa arus kala 2 ?

atau terujakah kita jika diselamatkan masa 2 ?

<<>>

bila kita tenggelam..

kita tersorok

sukarnya pencarian

hampir pasti xkan kembali

... dan >>

adakah kita ingin menyorok diri ?

mahukah kita lemas sendirian ?

atau terfikir utk membuat perubahan ?

yg pasti segalanya berkemungkinan trjadi

perjln hidup kita rancangkan

penghujungnya Dia penentunya

kita perlu akur

kira harus tabah

kira pasti tempuh

kita redha

selagi kita berakal waras...

kita patut fikir yg trbaik

kita usaha yg trbaik

kita ajukan yg trbaik

jgn paksa diri

jgn paksa emosi & perasaan

jgn paksa sesiapa

kita perlu peka

perbezaan situasi..sekeliling kita

perubahan semasa..sekitaran kita

perasaan & emosi >>>

diri kita

kawan2 kita

kesayangan kita

kekdg musuh kita pun..

apa2 pun jua keadaan

berpada2lah..

xsume yg kita suka..org lain suke

xsume yg org lain suke..kita pun kena suke

bila kita berada tinggi

jgn lupa kita pernah ditmpt yg rendah

bila kita berada rendah

perlu keyakinan..sedikit usaha

pasti kita kesana..

pertikatkan diri :  rossi

update...'malas'

wahhhhhh.....duhhhhhh
lama nau x update blog aku ni
bz ?? >> xle sgt
sikit malas je nak fikir apa nak tulis
ape2 pun....sume ok belaka
sume2 cam biasa

kemalasan adalah punca segala kejadian -tive
tpi nak buang 'malas' tu yg syg sgt
ehhhh....cam xsempurna lak klw xmalas

klw le ada dose menghindar malas
lame dah aku amek
mahal cam ne pun aku bayar
xde ke sape2 yg tringin nak invent ubat cenggitu?

tapi tu kan salah 1 sifat kejadian yg Allah cipta utk mahluknya
klw xde...rs2 ape la yg akan jadi?
sume2 pukul rajin je...
yg rajin keje...karang xreti2 lak nak rehat
yg rajin makan....mak aiiii...taw2 je la ? nx
yg rajin tido....haaa..yg cenggitu = aku le...
hampeh2..

ok2...xperlu pertikaikan idea bodoh ni..
jst follow d flow
improve
be good
honest
of course must cool
then i think v all be fine
*****

no more 'malas'ing yeaa..: rossi

today >> down2..but !!!

yesterday down....
today >>  even worse
not well...headache + stomachache + fever + ulcer ++
on mc...
badan rs sakit2 sgt...lemah longlai 
pegi wat body massage...woww...so painful man..
dah la kering...terasa smpi the other side of my tulang
but rs lega sikit..
pas 2 >>>> 
@*&^%#)>+
!(-?"$@#&....
tertidur..???


baru ingat.....in my mini reso....nak wat massage...
hahaha...indirectly...1 time done..
few more times to go..
hopefully i can make a routine for the massages 
+ facial gak la..


harap2 sume ok la..
as long xde major sickness
dah check doktor...all ok..tip top..
just tired & stressed..


btw, tq to evy1 yg concerned..
luv u all..

jarang sakit tapi..??..:  rossi 

'down' day

ari ni betol2 down, teramat sgt
sebab :  entah lah...
nak explain too details kot
sendiri pun susah nak faham
>> personal = ada la benda.....too personal
>> tmpt keje = sgt2 la memang tak cool....cold ade la..
>> kawan2 = tak la, sume2 ok...baik2 belaka
>> family = all fine je..luv them
>> financial = sume org pun ada problem, wl never be enough
>> feeling = mixed up
>> thinking = ting tong
>> brain = half 'gone'
>> energy = half 'dead'
>> desire = full swing....??..
>> memory = still keeping d good 1
>> body = luckily still maintain...in shaped...hahaha
>> mental = still tip-top....nsb baik..
>> health = good
...in short...actual reasons made me down >>> just don't know
hopefully tomorrow will be normal as usual....praying..

stressed as well : rossi

kelahiran 'februari' - kajian dato' dr hj fadzilah kamsah

sape2 yg lahirnya bulan 2 = februari...

cam ni la bunyinya kajian tentang anda

* berfikiran abstrak

* suke benda yg realiti & abstrak

* bijak & pintar.....(errmmmm...)

* berpewatakan yg mudah berubah

* mudah menawan org lain

* agak pendiam

* pemalu & rendah diri
* jujur & setia pada segalanya
* keras hati untuk mencapai matlamat
* tidak suka dikongkong & mudah memberontak
* suka kegiatan yg lasak
* emosinya mudah terluka& amat sensitif
* mudah mempamerkan marahnya
* sgt berani & suka memberontak
* suka berkawan tapi kurang mempamerkan
* bercita2 tinggi & suka berangan2
* suka hiburan & sukan
* permerhatian yg tajam
* suka benda yg bersifat seni
* sgt romantik pd dalaman tpi tidak pd luaran
* cenderung pd benda yg tahyul
* amat mudah & boleh jd terlalu boros
* belajar utk mempamerkan emosi
* perlu belajar bersosial
* sifat cemburu yg sgt2 tinggi


haaaa..cenggitu la kamu2 yg lahir bulan februari..
bkn saya kata....
sume kajian saja...oleh dato' dr hj fadzilah kamsah..
jgn main2...boleh guna pakai tuuuu....


tapi rs2nya bkn la sume sifat2 org sama..
dah nama pun kajian..
tak perlu risau & teruja nau laa...
cool aje la ye...


btw, selamat hari lahir utk sume2 yg lahir bulan februari ni ye...
semoga Allah panjangkan usia,
dimurahkan & diberkati rezeki
insyaAllah....aminnnnn

ikhlas tpi pnjam je..dari  : rossi

bullshit!!!!

bullllllshhhiiiiitttttttttttttt....!!!!!

all bullshitting only..

stupid fool..

fair???

not at all,

in what category???

skin colour?..may be..

personal ??...so much there..

racism??...so very close..

anyway..

nothing much we could say or do

beyond our control

what people want to say or think of you.

some said >> if you clever to 'fan'..

then you may go far or you will become a 'pet'

but...oooo please, not me..

what's wrong will be always wrong

argued..definitely i will argue

whether they like it or not

up to them..

cool....i always want to be so very 'cool'

i know....i'm cool

but still not enough....to face the 'faked' faces...

keep trying...

as long no one 'stepping' on my tail, then...

i'm still fine..

me...normally...will >>

calmed down,

closed my eyes..

imagined of others, who more unfortunate

if i could sleep, then i go & get it

>>> should be fine then..

don't ask what kind of 'fine' is the fine..

good enough if i don't smash people's face

..not yet >>>

hopefully...can keep that momentum..

Allah knows...

cool cool & cool :  rossi